Thursday

"A Story from my Childhood" - a short story by CGAllan

Brown Fox was at it again. The whole forest could smell the steaming strawberry pies in the morning air. Grey Squirrel and Tawny Owl looked at one another and frowned in dismay.

“What was he told?” said the Wise Stag to the gathering of deer and doves at the Great Glen.

“He must only ever bake custard pies!” declared the audience. And the Wise Stag descended the Fallen Oak and made his way to Crabapple Orchard.


This is Wren's story. The story of his young days in a once proud and green forest. A forest where he still nests to this day - old and withered. It remains a sorrowful shadow of its past glory. It is the tale of how a cunning fox and a slippery eel plunged the whole forest into fear and paranoia.


Wren was a watcher. He'd watch the ducks migrate and return each year. He'd watch the leaves fall and grow once more season after season. On this particular day, of this particular year, he was perched on the collapsed fence which surrounded Crabapple Orchard - drawn there by a strange aroma in the air. He was watching the Wise Stag banging his head against the door of a huge oak tree - the property of a 'Mr. B. Fox Esquire', as the mailbox read.

“Come out, Fox!” shouted the Wise Stag. The Stag's followers - the doves and the frogs - stood at the edge of the orchard in anticipation. “What... were... you... told?!” He continued to shout, while still pounding on the solid door.

“Just a moment!” came a distant voice from within the huge oak. The Wise Stag brought a stop to his pounding and stepped back a little. He waited patiently. Wren saw the old Stag sniff the air, and noticed that the curious smell that had tempted him there had vanished.

His distraction was broken as a series of unlocking and unbolting sounds were heard from the oak tree and its door was opened.

“Do come in, my dear fellow.”

Wren leaned forward on his perch, but couldn't make out the figure standing in the doorway. The voice was new, but friendly, and he determined that it must be that of Mr. B. Fox Esquire.

“There's nothing wrong, is there?” asked the voice. And the Wise Stag pushed his head into the doorway, looking from side to side, while four or five of his frog followers went inside and three of the doves circled high above the top branches of Mr. Fox's dwelling.

Wren waited and watched for some time before the frogs re-emerged from the huge oak. And as he waited he also saw more and more animals arrive at the scene. Among them were two figures he did recognise: Grey Squirrel and Tawny Owl. He felt a little more at ease seeing these familiar faces, standing shoulder-to-shoulder talking to the Wise Stag.

“This ought not to have happened, Stag!” Wren heard the Owl say.

“This time he must be taught a lesson,” added the Squirrel.

Wren watched the Stag closely. He didn't give a reply to the other two animals, but just bowed his strong head in thought.

The door of the huge oak finally swung open once more and the frogs seemed to spill out. The doves came down to land and Stag called them over to him. They were in conference for a short time, during which Wren began to feel a little shaky. The tiny bird could now see what Mr. Fox looked like.

He stood in his doorway, arms folded, glaring straight at Grey Squirrel and Tawny Owl. For their part, the other two animals in question were not going to allow him to win this particular staring contest.

“This time you're safe, Fox!” came Stag's ailing voice, at last breaking the tension in the orchard. “But we'll want to return regularly to view your kitchen.”

Brown Fox seemed to consider his position, looking back at Owl and Squirrel, and in the end gave his reply, “Very well, Stag.”

And that was that. Crabapple Orchard returned to the eerie quiet which Wren was accustomed to encountering there. The crowds dispersed. Fox closed his door - bolting it securely from the inside. And Wren began to consider where the day would take him next.

As he prepared to head for the dried-up river-bed to the east of the forest to look for worms, he heard a rustling in the hedge next to where he was perched.

“Quite a show he puts on, old Mr Fox, isn't it?” said the strange creature that emerged from the bush. “But give him time, we'll see more grander sights than that in the days to come.”

Wren froze instinctively, but had to know what the creature was.

“I'm a monkey, my boy,” said the creature, sensing the tiny bird's question. And he sat down beside Wren on the decrepit fence.

It meant nothing to Wren. He may not have been a monkey, but the young bird had never seen one before, so who was he to question the other's claim?

“What do you make of it all, my young friend?” asked the monkey.

“I... I'm not sure what's going on really,” he replied, clearly unsure of himself.

“Well, don't worry about that,” assured the monkey. “He's got the whole forest puzzled.”

“What was that strange smell?” wondered Wren out loud.

“It's a long story, that one,” said the monkey. “Perhaps your mother will tell you about it sometime. But I will say this, I've smelt that aroma before and it wasn't very sweet then either. Why do you think the Owl and the Squirrel looked so serious?”

“Well,” Wren was thinking as he spoke. “They didn't seem to like Mr. Fox very much.”

“Very well observed, my young friend. But it is somewhat more complicated than that - you see they could have prevented this happening again last time, but Stag intervened.”

Wren wasn't following the story very well. It had all happened before his time. And the way the monkey told it, it seemed to have happened a very long time ago indeed.

“It's always difficult to know how far to go,” continued the monkey, but Wren was now recalling what his mother had warned him about talking to strangers in the forest, and so he bade a hasty goodbye to the monkey, breaking the creature off in mid-sentence.

“Oh!” he exclaimed. “Well, just remember this, young Wren. Always observe from a distance. Never get involved until you are absolutely sure of which side of the forest you want to make your nest... Observe and wait...”

The monkey creature's words rang around Wren's head as he pulled the worms out of the cracked earth of the river-bed that afternoon, and they still hung in his mind when he reached home that evening.

“What's a monkey look like, Mother?” asked Wren that night as they settled down to roost.

“Why?” she enquired suspiciously.

“You always told me not to answer a question with another question!” he said.

“So I did,” she replied. “Well, they have hair all over and use their feet like they use their hands. There used to be one in the forest before you were born.”

His mother watched to see Wren's reaction. His eyes lit up.

“He used to say he'd escaped from the asylum of the big predators,” she continued. “But no one really listened to his ramblings very much.”

“Oh,” was all Wren managed to say. He was very tired.

But as he drifted off, he caught his mother’s words as clear as the morning sky: “I don't want you going near Crabapple Orchard any more, Wren. It's going to get a little bit crowded there soon, so stay clear of it.”

The coming days and weeks were quiet in the Great Forest. From time to time, Wren would see lines of frogs escorted by doves flying high above, heading towards Crabapple Orchard, but Wren dared not go there for fear his mother would find out.
His mother and the other parents of the forest would have probably not noticed if their children had wandered off, as they were constantly being called to the Fallen Oak, where the Wise Stag gave long and boring speeches.

He questioned his mother routinely each evening at roosting time, about what the meetings were about and what the strange smell had been that odd day at Crabapple Orchard.

“Youngsters shouldn't worry themselves with that sort of thing,” she would say. She would also quickly change the subject of conversation and was always careful not to answer any of her son's questions with a question of her own.

Wren slowly put it all out of his mind and began to play like a young chick once more. But his playful days were soon to be brought to an abrupt end. It was on one particular day of the new season that he observed a group of blackbirds and sparrows gathered around Grey Squirrel's fern home. They were soon taking off in flight, Squirrel wished them a good day's “work”, and Wren found himself leaving the worm he had been throwing around and was following them at a safe distance.

He stopped his pursuit at the edge of the forbidden orchard, cursing the fact that he was too young to be allowed any further. But he discovered a good vantage point high in an elm tree at the edge of the “no-fly zone”, as his mother called it.

The group of birds seemed to stop and hover around Brown Fox's oak. And then, as Wren watched in horror, they began diving and squawking and dropping caterpillars into the field behind the huge oak tree. Wren could hear the Fox shouting and saw the stones he threw up at the attacking birds.

Wren couldn't make sense of it all. What could make one animal want to harm another?
Eventually the birds made their return flight back out of the orchard. Some were bloodied. Some were grinning. And Wren followed them again, cautiously.

They landed at Grey Squirrel's fern, where he waited with Tawny Owl.

“Well?” they asked of the returning heroes.

The blackest blackbird went over to the sandstone rock which lay beside Squirrel's home and began to scratch with his beak and talk very fast. Wren tried to get closer, hopping from tree to tree, until he was satisfied he was close enough to hear the speech.

“We circled in close formation and then began our run,” said the blackbird. “These strawberry patches were the first to be taken out. The caterpillars will devour them in a matter of days.”

The detailed etchings continued as he spoke.

“As for the oak itself - his stronghold - five sparrows managed to get inside and turn the kitchen upside down. We think that we have ceased production for at least a week or more.”

“Then, we will need additional flights!” said the Grey Squirrel.

“But we must get Stag's blessing before we carry out any further action,” reasoned the Owl, and the gathering left immediately, taking the path to the Great Glen.

Wren hopped onto a branch of the Squirrel's fern and squinted at the rock drawings.
“What do you make of them, young Wren?” came the familiar voice of the monkey as he swung down from a nearby tree.

Wren, quite unusually, wasn't taken by surprise, but instead remained fixated upon the sandstone. “What were they getting so excited about?” he asked, giving the monkey a question straight back.

“The forest is about to be changed forever,” replied the monkey.

“Brown Fox is a pie maker,” he explained to Wren as later that day they watched hordes of animals arrive in the Great Glen for the meeting that Wise Stag had called.

“Some years ago Fox deliberately used strawberries which had gone bad in his pies and a lot of animals in the forest suffered from stomach aches for a long time.”

“That smell!” said Wren, looking up at his friend. “It was strawberries!”

“The last time a meeting of this sort was called,” said the monkey, “it was decided that Fox could no longer be trusted to bake any kind of pies but custard pies.”

“But they still allowed him to make pies of some sort, then?”

“Very good, my young friend,” smiled the monkey. “You're beginning to catch on to the ludicrous nature of this whole situation.”

“But he's a grown-up!” said Wren. “How can one grown-up tell another grown-up what to do?”

The conversation was stopped there. For the Great Stag was standing on the Fallen Oak, and when he stood there, everyone knew he was ready to speak.

“My friends and neighbours…” He was beginning a long speech, thought Wren. “..some action has been taken by some members of our community which, although I cannot condone it, has brought a very grave problem to light.”

“May I speak for myself in this mess?” came the voice of Brown Fox, from the edge of the Glen.

“Very unexpected indeed,” said the monkey to himself.

The gathering all murmured as Mr. B. Fox Esquire walked through their ranks to the Fallen Oak.

“I have come here today to clear up a misunderstanding which I know you would all like resolved as well,” Fox bellowed.

“What about the smell?” asked Wren of his friend.

“He'll get to it, I'm sure,” replied the monkey.

And so he did. Fox explained that the familiar smell of strawberries everyone was so sure they could smell that day was indeed that of the forbidden fruit. But not of burning strawberries, rather of cooking them into something,… something nasty.

“How else was I to dispose of the old crop of strawberries?” continued the Fox. “After all I needed my field clear to grow the winter-berries I was planting for you all!”

Everyone except for one or two owls and squirrels seemed happy enough believing Brown Fox.

“I suggest,” echoed Brown Fox's voice, now in full flow, “that you hold a Marking Procession to decide whether or not you believe me or not.”

A murmur spread through the crowd of animals, growing into a constant rumbling as they discussed the proposal. Wren could hear a few of the birds on the lower perches of his tree.

“We live in a free and fair forest, after all,” said a Finch.

“And the will of all animals is fair,” concluded another.

The frogs and doves persuaded the Wise Stag to agree to the motion.
“I suppose this will decide it,” said Wren happily.

But the monkey looked concerned. “I don't like this situation at all.”

And before Wren could ask him if he was going to join the Marking Procession, the monkey swung away through the tree and out of the Great Glen.

“Pawns, all of them!” he shouted as he went. But Wren wanted to know the outcome.
It was a simple proposition. Each animal would, over the next week, come up to the Fallen Oak and scratch their mark on one of the sides of the tree to show their support for or against Brown Fox. Nothing could be simpler - and Wren for once thought he understood a grown-up's game.

“Before you begin,” said Brown Fox, after the rules had been explained to everyone.
“I want to ask one of you to come here and sit next to me, to prove that I am indeed your friend.”

The gathering wasn't sure what to make of his request. After a short silence, a few began to edge forward.

“I would like our young bystander there to come sit by me!” Fox’s voice echoed around the glen.

Wren froze. All of the animals were looking straight at him. He thought he could not be seen this high up. He had no choice but to go. He flew cautiously to the Fallen Oak and to the side of Brown Fox.

“I am not cruel and I am not out to deliberately harm any of you,” said Fox, putting his paw on Wren's shoulder. “You see, this youngster - the smallest in our forest - isn't afraid of me, so why should any of you be?”

The owls and squirrels had gone by now, and Brown Fox soon made his exit too. Most of the animals still present didn't need the whole week to decide which side of the Fallen Oak they would mark. And once they had made their mark, they passed by little Wren and smiled in thanks for helping them decide.

Soon the Wise Stag was declaring that they had all been mistaken about the smell in the air that morning, saying, “This is a great week for harmony in the forest.” And he also said that the Fox had requested that since his kitchen had been so badly damaged, the frogs need no longer make their visits there. This too, the Stag declared, was a “fair request”.

And that was that. For the summer at least. Autumn brought rain and with it came dark clouds.

Wren was growing older now, and had seen his friend the monkey infrequently since the time of the Marking Procession, all those many days before.

It was on one particular day, of one particular season, that the small bird was at the river-bed, which the rains had now filled back up. He was waiting for the worms to come out of their flooded holes, when he discovered what a 'pawn' truly was.

“So you fooled them all, didn't you,” came a voice which Wren could just hear.

“Yes, I suppose I did,” replied the friendly voice of Mr. B. Fox Esquire. “And now it is your turn, is it not?”

“Very well,” the other voice replied, and then the dialogue ceased. All that Wren could hear was the sound of the rain and a splashing noise which eventually faded.
Wren could do nothing but wait to see what the other's “turn” would be.

Three more seasons passed and still nothing out of the ordinary happened. Wren had, by that time, concluded that he either imagined or dreamed that rainy afternoon at the river-bed.

The reappearance of his friend the monkey, however, did make the bird wonder.
“You have grown, my friend, if not in stature, at least in character, and I see it!” said the monkey, sitting down on the lowest branch of the elm at the edge of Crabapple Orchard, which was now Wren's regular perch.

“Where do you go when you disappear like you do?” Wren asked the monkey.
“Oh, here and there.” And that was all he said about that.

The two friends walked back to the Great Glen and stopped at the Fallen Oak, seeing the now moss-covered scratches the animals had made.

“You must always remember that this is a fair thing,” said the monkey.

“I always think of the Procession as a game to let us animals feel as if we have some influence over what happens in the forest,” said Wren, sounding like a gloomy grown-up.

“Fox wanted to get his own way,” reasoned the monkey. “He would have used any means to get it.”

He had, and Wren knew this all too well.

The monkey taught Wren how the Marking Procession was the key to a truly fair forest. It wasn't a new-fangled idea by any means. Some said that it went back to the early days of the forest, perhaps even to the time when the forest was but a single acorn.

“But its great age means that it is vulnerable to attack and manipulation,” added the monkey. “And it sometimes allows cunning Foxes to walk freely in our forest, because of a fear of being too harsh.”

“So, that's why they allowed him to make custard pies, then?”

“Not really,” replied the monkey. “They just still love the taste of custard, but one day they might grow out of it.”

At that moment a line of toads wandered into the Great Glen. The monkey disappeared quickly, leaving Wren to greet them.

“You look tired, my friends.” Wren was getting more and more confident at talking with the animals of the forest on the ground.

“We ought to be, young one,” replied a wrinkled and warted toad near the front of the line. “We've been walking for a long time.”

They explained that they had been forced to leave their pond far to the edge of the known forest by a group of eels who had poisoned the water.

The Wise Stag soon arrived and began organising local ponds for the toads to temporarily use - much to the dismay of the frogs and newts there who didn't particularly like toads.

Soon the local ponds were full to the brim. And still more and more lines of toads arrived from every direction, each telling the same tale of being forced out of their ponds by the eels.

As before, Tawny Owl and Grey Squirrel became the loudest voices among the chaos.
“We must act now before this gets out further out of hand, Stag!” said the Owl passionately. “This sort of thing shouldn't be allowed to happen in our forest,” added the Squirrel.

There were those, of course, who said that the toads' ponds were too far away to concern them, that they had little right to interfere in the outer edges of the forest. They were mostly the Foxes though, and the majority of support was with Owl and Squirrel's plan. Their biggest supporters, it had to be said, were the frogs, but probably only because it would mean that they could get rid of the toads.
And that was that.

The blackbird and sparrow sorties were once again used against the ponds which the eels were rumoured now to inhabit. The birds were gone for a long time each day - the ponds were too far away for Wren to follow them, but he and the monkey occupied their time each day watching the continuing lines of toads arriving at the Great Glen - all from the safety of the upper branches of their tree.

“They say that resources are being stretched,” said the monkey one day well into the crisis. “The birds are exhausted and the damming of the ponds isn't really working.”
Wren listened as always to the monkey's reports, but was worrying in case he would be asked to join the daily flights.

“You needn't come here every day, you know,” said the monkey to the young bird countless times a week. “Why don't you ever go exploring and flying just for the fun of it any more?”

But Wren rarely answered him any more. And there were days when he didn't come to their high elm perch, but those days were mostly spent in the safety of his mother's nest, from which he hadn't been able to drag himself when he awoke from nightmares of whispering foxes and eels in a dried-up forest.

“Do you ever dream of leaving this forest for good and going to another?” asked Wren of his monkey companion almost every time they met high in the elm tree.
“There is a time for dreaming and there is a time for keeping your mind firmly fixed on the real world, young one,” the monkey would always reply. And that was always that.


It was early on a summer evening when the balance of the forest was upturned yet again. The ponds around the Great Glen were alive with the sound of the dusk chorus of the toads. The frogs and newts sat as usual covering their ears and routinely moaned to one another about their situation. But Owl and Squirrel smiled contently at the sound coming from the ponds.

Their smiles, however, rapidly turned to expressions of confusion as the chorus was drowned out by a sound which had at first been a low hum, but grew to a huge roar when its perpetrators were revealed.

The Wise Stag, grazing in a nearby clearing, raised his strong and ageing head, and twitched his ears to detect where the sound was coming from.

The monkey, who had been sitting high up in the elm perch, could see Brown Fox smiling quite contently and dancing around in his kitchen to the tune of the humming noise as it spread quickly through Crabapple Orchard. On seeing this, the monkey immediately swung towards the Great Glen.

Young Wren, at the now almost dried-out river-bed - his first visit in a long time - had been taken completely by surprise by the dark cloud which had passed over his head, making the cracked earth look like it had been filled back up by dark, cold water. The sound of the cloud was soon upon Wren too, and he dropped the worm he had been tugging out of the ground. It slithered away back into its hole, and Wren ran for cover.

By the time he reached his monkey friend at the Great Glen, it seemed as though every tree in the forest was shaking.

“They say they are here to make a formal protest against the damming of the eels' homes,” explained the monkey.

“What are they?” asked Wren - and rightly so. For as long as he could remember, Wren had not seen these creatures in his part of the forest. They were strangers.
“Bees,” came the monkey's uncomplicated answer.

The biggest bee, looking drowsy and heavy-laden with the day's collection of nectar, was in deep discussion with Owl and Squirrel, and of course Stag who had hurriedly arrived moments before.

“Of course, they may not be a real threat any more since they lost their stings,” said the monkey. “But their sheer numbers will persuade the Stag to bring a standstill to the damming campaign.”

The monkey's predictions always amazed Wren. But that was what happened - all the animals were scared of what the reappearance of the bees could mean, and - with the helpful suggestion of one Mr. B. Fox Esquire - the Great Glen once again hosted a Marking Procession to decide whether to stop the campaign. And that was that.

The monkey pointed out to Wren the peculiar nature of this Procession - because Fox asked those in favour of stopping the Owl and Squirrel's plans to make their mark on the side of the Fallen Oak which, coincidently, was the same side they had marked in favour of himself only a few short seasons before.

“I wonder if, after the Procession, it ever occurred to Fox to scrape away the moss to reveal the old marks on his side of the Fallen Oak,” asked the monkey on one particular day shortly after that particular crisis was over. It was the last time he spoke to Wren. Not long after that, he disappeared forever.

The question he had posed, however, occupied much of the introverted bird's time from that particular day onwards. He missed his friend the monkey, but that was that. He spent almost every day in the highest branches of the trees at the edge of the Great Glen, watching the Fallen Oak with its scarred bark. His gaze often wandered across the tops of all the trees in the forest, to where the monkey might be, and to where the chaos might not exist.

The pattern of life in the Great Forest had been changed forever. The frogs always complained about the toads who had to take up permanent residence in “their” ponds; the Wise Stag was rarely seen in the Great Glen at all - preferring to spend his days grazing in the nearby clearing and be left alone; Tawny Owl and Grey Squirrel took over the mantel left by Stag - and not everyone was happy with that self-appointed arrangement. The doves had long ago left for another forest; Brown Fox's kitchen was continuously burning unwanted strawberries and many animals were often seen rolling around Crabapple Orchard cradling their stomachs.

Old rivalries re-emerged slowly, but surely. Each animal group began to divide back into their sets - birds against fish; frogs against toads, foxes against squirrels; and the bees, who remained a permanent presence in the forest, were against anyone who came their way - their stings somehow having grown back, reappearing miraculously overnight.

In the middle of all the chaos was Wren. Small and insignificant, unable to withstand the panic which had spread throughout the forest as quickly as the bees had on that shocking day of that shocking season.

One tree was no longer distinguishable from another tree. Fern looked like oak, oak looked like elm. And the whole forest turned as dry and lifeless to Wren as the river-bed did in summer. The rainy season never returned for him.....


“And that was that.”

“Well? What happened after that?”

“That can't be the end, can it?!”

“Did the monkey ever return?”

The whole audience was hanging on the next word of Lieutenant Alex Rennington, V.C., who sat grooming the head of a stuffed chimpanzee toy in the corner of the day room.
But he didn't speak another word. The gathering waited for a while and then, when it was obvious that he was finished, they began to leave.

“Maybe tomorrow, eh, Alex?” smiled Nurse Crowley.

“Isn't there a 'Happily Ever After' ending then?” said another patient sarcastically, obviously disappointed at not hearing more about the Great Forest.

“What would drive a young man like that to have a breakdown on that scale?” pondered Dr. Stevens, pointing out a newspaper he wanted to buy from the clinic shop. “And why create a fantasy world of so many complex characters to escape into?”

“It is a very complicated case,” replied Dr. Peters. “But at this stage, your guess is as good as mine, I'm afraid.”

The shopkeeper handed the doctor his paper and tutted when he read the front page headline:

"THE WORLD AT WAR… AGAIN: THE LATEST PICTURES FROM THE FRONT!"

“I've seen this sort of thing before,” added Dr. Peters, sounding forlorn. “Hope is something he seems to have lost sight of. He'll be here until he's very old if the situation doesn't show some improvement soon.”


(word count: 5,045)

©CGAllan, 1999 - Please note: The right of CGAllan to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted by him in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.


First and foremost, I love writing stories with animal characters in them - I was never a "natural" storyteller, I've had to work at it and know I still have a long, long way to go to practice my art… I can still remember at school writing a piece of creative writing at the age of 16 and thinking it was the best ever (something about a cartoonist in World War 2 who is drafted to go to war, and surprise, surprise, he gets his hands blown off - corny, I know!). My English teacher gave me it back without marking it and told me to start over - I thought long and hard and began to "write what I know" - my parents always kept dogs as I grew up so I crafted a completely different story about a dog called "Bracken" and his adventures on an average day roaming around the village he lived in... I got top marks for that and the experience of writing stories with animals as the heroes has stuck with me ever since - just take a look at my Young Kids Stories page to read more...

The idea for this story came from the real-life backdrop at the time being the 2nd Gulf War. It was a worrying time for everyone, and personally, being only in my late teens, I remember having conflicting feelings about what I thought about fighting in a war and the political reasoning behind such an undertaking. I was "of age" to go to war, at that time, to be "called up" if it required (and this was certainly discussed in the news). For this reason, personally, it's a story of the loss of childhood, really... So I although I did write the piece with a specific conflict in mind (the Grey Fox = President Clinton and the Red Squirrel was PM Tony Blair), I was thrilled when close friends read this and they interpreted the inspiration for the story differently – some saw the Cold War and other conflicts – I think this is fantastic and I’m always amazed and impressed how writing can touch different people in different ways…

I always knew I wanted to begin with a Disney-style scene, painted with lush colours and fun-loving descriptions and then descend slowly into the mirky tones and bleak look of the forest/world around Wren/myself by the story’s final twist in the day room of the sanitarium… The monkey is a strange character to have just plonked into a story that's seemingly set in a typical English forest but I wanted to have him stand as someone who was outside of the whole sequence of events unfolding, much like Wren is at the beginning but he of course does not escape being pulled back into it by the end. I also liked the notion of using an ape because of the idea that he's escaped from one of the "human prisons" or deplorable animal testing labs which are still operating in the UK today...

The final twist is meant to come as a shock to the reader, to offer a real jolt in the narrative. I'm always curious as to whether it seems too much "out of the blue" but I always knew the story was going to end like that before I even began writing it. I've toyed with what the headline on the newspaper headline should say at the end a lot - it's the central message of the story - can we ever be rid of war in our time or future times when we look at the mistakes we've made time and again in the past? The story ends on a pretty low point with little hope and so I guess I'm being a pessimist and asserting that we won't ever bring an end to war... Who knows, I may be wrong, but a new memorial to fallen members of the forces here in the UK, recently erected, at least acknowledges that we may still make the mistake of going to war in the future, since they have a section of wall which remains blank, ominously awaiting the names of those not yet sacrificed to humankind's wars against themselves: http://www.forcesmemorial.org.uk/

This time, as opposed to the previous stories on this page, I've used different styles of Vanessa Stafford's artwork to show the changing seasons/nature of Wren's world - from gathering storm clouds to torched earth and then the final mixing of two worlds... I’m as thrilled as ever to be hosting some of Vanessa’s art on this story page once more – these particular ones I think show the breadth of her painting talent and also prove her unique artistic style stretches across many different landscapes types – I could sit and look at them for hours. They take me away to distant places and times, both into my past memories and future hopes, and I think that’s what every good picture should do…

In early 2007 I decided to try different ways to add intrigue and anticipation to my writing for readers and made this post over at my writing journal blog:

http://cgallan.blogspot.com/2007/01/get-in-for-trailers-before-main-feature.html

Then I put a "teaser trailer" on each of my story blogs to prelude the stories that were "Coming soon". Here's what the teaser for "A Story From My Childhood" looked like:

Remember those care free days of your youth?


Recollecting here soon will be a brand new tale

of days gone by...

"A Story from my Childhood"

(a short wondering)

by CGAllan

And debuting with it will be more haunting

watercolours from artist Vanessa Stafford...

(Until then, why not read a story from the shelf below?

Tuesday

"King Of The Jungle" - a short story by CGAllan

Published in "In Search of the MacGuffin" Anthology, 2004 - the online version of which is still here (NB the published version originally available from CafePress is now out of print/rare)

AND...

...read on air throughout Tyneside on hospital radio in 2009 for the "Stories For Radio" Project in conjunction with New Writing North.

He had waited until all were asleep, until his cell-mate had been dragged away and burnt alive, giving him the chance to live, until the time was just right. And then from the darkness and madness of his existence in that place, he made his move. He couldn't wait until the end of the war to be rescued, so he escaped...


He sat in Ward 3 of a British military hospital, hidden deep within the Burmese jungle. He watched a bird as it flew onto the open window sill. It looked in once and then seemed to reconsider and flew off, consumed by the jungle in an instant.

The man was, to everyone around him, insane. But inside his mind there was order and regiment. He knew who he was and what had happened to him - yet he never talked of it. He rarely talked at all in fact: his speech was limited to murmurs every so often for food or water. He did make sound at night... but who didn't in that place? The screams were expected by the nurses whose nerves were tested to breaking point each night.

Since he wouldn't speak a word upon arrival - not even to give his serial number or regiment, the doctors gave him the affectionate name 'George' - in honour of the king. He didn't mind though - at least it wasn't Joe Bloggs or something demeaning, but perhaps he wouldn't have minded something demeaning anyway.

Other than his inarticulate manner, George was labelled "doolalee" by his fellow inmates because of his strange habits - one of which was knitting every hour that the day sent light.

"Maybe it's what got him through his time with the Japs" guessed the patient opposite George, who had been scarred by shrapnel at Cou Pang. "It might remind him of home and his mother" reminisced a plump nurse. "Let him keep on knitting if it keeps him happy". It certainly kept the ward Sister and her colleagues happy - they had got five cardigans out of George since he arrived.

At present, George was knitting a ball shape, and despite being teased by his compatriots, he diligently kept on at it for a full week. They thought it was a football or another pin cushion for the nurses, but George was knitting this one for himself. By Friday morning, he had finished it and pushed it in-between the railings underneath his bed. This one the nurses couldn't have - this one George would keep for himself

He used the remainder of his wool to knit a pair of yellowy-pink booties, which he wore constantly from that time onwards. The nurses wondered whether his mother wore similar coloured slippers when he was a child, and the other former POWs in the ward commented on how, after spending months bare-footed in a labour-camp, even they would consider wearing comfortable booties - but perhaps some other colour than yellowy-pink.

After that he stopped knitting for a while. He wanted brown wool and shocked Sister by asking for it. "He spoke!" She cried. "Yes, but when can I get my brown wool?" pursued George. He didn't speak to the Sister again after that. He patiently waited for his brown wool to arrive. Patience and time were all he had - he was extremely patient. His time with the Japanese had taught him patience.

Besides he had other things to occupy his time: he would repeatedly polish his service boots regimentally each morning and night; he had doctor's tests every other day to look forward to; and there were the visits of the Chaplain each Monday afternoon.

"How are you today then George?" Asked Fr. Beakes as he took off his overcoat and revealed his black suit and blinding white collar. George smiled his reply and the priest nodded contently. George seemed fascinated with this man each time he visited. He would sit to attention and seemed to listen to what he had to say.

The nurses, observing George's bursts of interests each Monday afternoon, said he must be remembering the church-going days of his childhood with his mother, while the other patients said that faith was all that was left for a man who had been shut up in a swamp cell for twenty four hours of the day.

There was never any dialogue between the priest and the 'mad man' of course. Fr Beakes would give reports on the progress of the war and passed encouraging comments about how well George looked. All were simply answered by George's continual smiles and uniquely regular 'clicks' from the back of his throat.

This irritated his fellow countrymen in the ward who were trying to sleep or just had no nerves left to test. But the nurses guessed it was probably something his mother did when he was a child to console him, while Fr Beakes thought it may have been a way of counting time that George had adopted while he was a POW.

As occurred each Monday afternoon at about half way into the visit of the priest, just after he had finished his prayers and given George Communion, George's clicking noises got louder as Fr. Beakes pulled out his pocket watch to see how long he had before he had to move onto the next catholic patient in the next ward.

"You do like this watch don't you George" observed the priest placing it back into his waist coat pocket and bringing a brown paper parcel out from his overcoat pocket. George's eyes were still fixed upon the watch chain, which dangled tantalizingly from the priest's waistcoat pocket.

Unwrapping the brown paper package, Fr Beakes revealed a slightly worn and obviously cheaper pocket watch - but a watch all the same. "This is for you George. Every good catholic should have one", joked the priest. He leaned closer to George saying a little quieter, "you'll be able to time Sister on her rounds now and see if she's the stickler for being on time that I've heard about".

George nodded with a smile, as if to carry on the joke.

The priest placed the gift into the waiting hands of George. The clicking sounds stopped, George was wound up with excitement, his eyes welled with tears, but he didn't allow them to drip down into the deep, unnatural canal of his left cheek - his gift from the Japanese.

George was forced to immediately check his reaction by the interruption of the ward Sister, who brought lemon tea and custard creams for Fr Beakes. George stared at the rotation of the second hand of his watch, while the priest thanked the Sister and turned back to George.

He took two custard creams from his plate and gave them to George. "There you go George, there's two more for your collection". George reached under his bed for the tin he'd been given for his wool. He opened it to reveal about two dozen other custard creams, to which he added the new ones, and replaced the lid.

Fr Beakes had rolled his eyes and smiled back at this quaint obsession that George had. Sister guessed that George's mother must have kept a ready supply of the biscuits when he was a child, and although George clearly didn't like custard creams, hoarding them was a way of not letting go of his childhood days.

Fr Beakes supped his tea and crunched his biscuits, watching George as he replaced the tin under the bed. "Aren't you ever going to eat one, George?" He asked. George shook his head.

"Well you don't know what you're missing" concluded the priest as he took another biscuit from his plate. He secretly thought that although George clearly didn't like custard creams, hoarding food must have been a way of life for a POW, who was fed on bread and water once every three days.

George was engrossed with his watch again.

"When I was at St Dymphna's back in Somerset, there was this one particular family..." the priest was at the point of his visit where he'd ran out of news and pleasantries and was left with about fifteen minutes to fill - so he began to reminisce and George switched off again - the clicking had stopped.

"Yes, this particular family, the Partridges I think they were called" droned on the Priest. "They were never on time for Mass, you see..." George and his watch were in another time and place - and certainly not back at St Dymphna's with the Partridges. Nevertheless, once Fr Beakes's visit came to an end and the Priest put on his overcoat George made sure he said "goodbye... and thank you". That was the first and last time George spoke to Fr Beakes.

It had been a long day, and a day for receiving of gifts. Earlier the Sister had brought George his brown wool - he was content. Since he hadn't given anything to deserve these gifts, George decided that he would do just that.

That night when all in the ward were asleep and in-between Sister's proficient hourly patrols, George crept over to Stan Maguire's bedside and popped the bravery medal he had received after escaping from 'Lau Mai' camp into his glass. Moving onto Jack Crawford's space, he put the pair of woolen gloves he had been working on over the weekend onto the bedside table (they wouldn't take long to replace). And to Wally Spedmore, the last man in Ward 3, George gave his false teeth. They were more trouble than they were worth, but Wally always complained that he wanted to look his best for when he saw his wife again, so George knew he'd put them to good use. He put them in Wally's slippers, where he would find them once he believed he could walk again.

George smiled, he felt a little like Father Christmas, but there was no chimney in the ward, and definitely no snow outside. He gave a tongue click before using the ward toilet and closing its window, which he had routinely opened earlier that evening. He just made it back into bed before Sister came back into the ward for her 3am watch. George looked at his wheel-chair, relieved he hadn't let her see him up and about.

George slept like a log that night. Gone were the cries for this night at least. He slept in the comfort of the hospital ward, surrounded by all his remaining possessions: his tin of custard creams; the carefully polished service boots; his yellowy-pink booties; the worn and battered, but perfectly working pocket watch from Fr Beakes which ticked away into the darkness; his knitting needles; the strange knitted ball; his brown wool and finally his new dress uniform which had just arrived the day before to replace the charred and tattered remains of the original which had endured the life of a POW along with George. They were all the possessions he had. Not too many - just a good, manageable amount.

George's original uniform had been his pride and joy. He could still remember the passing out parade in his hometown of Trowbridge - how proud he felt in that uniform. It all seemed like so long ago now, but that uniform George could still picture so clearly in his mind. When he was informed on entering the hospital that it had been incinerated he had felt as if he had lost an old, dear friend.

The next morning came and George awoke with a start - rising upright in his bed like a corpse that excels a last gasp of air and rises eerily. The rest of the occupants of the ward looked at George through the net-curtains, which surrounded his bed with little surprise. His fellow patients pondered on whether it was a habit he had acquired whilst he was captive and the nurses thought he must have been dreaming of his childhood and was looking for his mother.

George had slept so contently the previous night and yet now, he was in a panic. He looked around aimlessly, trying to focus on some marker that would tell him what he needed to know.

"Good morning George", intervened the dull voice of Dr Peterson. "What glorious sunshine there is for your walk in the gardens this morning". George immediately came down from his high and landed safely back on earth. He was so relieved in fact that he almost let himself give a reply to the grey haired doctor.

"That's some improvement at least, Sister" the doctor said at what he saw as George's open mouthed attempt at speech. The doctor was happy and George was just relieved that he hadn't made a sound.

"Well, everything seems fine, but I'm afraid until he begins speaking and walking again, George will be remaining with us until this damnable war comes to an end", concluded the heavy eyed doctor to the hovering ward Sister.

"If it ever does" interrupted Florence Brown, as she entered the room to begin her shift on Ward 3. The doctor and Sister moved onto Wally Spedmore and began examining his 'lame' legs. Florence came over to George almost, it seemed to George, as if to single him out.

"Well?" She asked. "Are you ready for your walk Georgie?" George's face beamed with excitement, but he didn't want Florence to know just how happy he was that she had arrived - and how over-joyed he was that he hadn't slept through her visit - that just wouldn't be the done thing.

George loved to listen to Florence's gossip as they progressed around the hospital grounds. Gossip of the various alterations going on throughout the hospital and the tales of the extensions being made to the hospital garden. Her voice was the calm needed in the sea of storms that George had constantly experienced since he first awoke to find himself in the hospital, so many months before.

"So you nearly talked today Georgie?" Came the soft familiar voice as Florence pushed George slowly along the pathway. "D'you fancy talking now? Maybe just to comment on the weather?" The climate certainly was perfect. It had been the rainy season for as long as George could recall, and now it was just right. No more sudden down-pours, just beautiful sun-drenched days - almost like the days back in Trowbridge, where George would play cricket as a boy.

But he couldn't recount those days to Florence, or even discuss the wonderful weather. Besides it would ruin the rapport that had developed between them.

The odd couple turned the corner at the petunias and began the penultimate leg of their 'walk' round the hospital grounds. George continued to contently listen to Florence as she walked, but sat up slightly more attently now.

"So you won't talk, eh Georgie?" Concluded the nurse of their prior conversation. Of course Georgie wouldn't talk, and he wasn't about to just get up and walk either. Without an answer to her question, Florence changed the subject, "look up there Georgie, you can see Dr Peterson and Sister canoodiling in his office". She was joking of course. "And there's the ward window".

George slowly raised his greasy brown-haired head up towards the window on the first floor. Up past the slow growing conifers, up through the ivy which had out-grown its wooden lattice support, up past the estimated three meters and two feet space of bricks to rest his eyes upon the ward toilet window which was blindingly bright in the midday sun.

"Soon have you back up there again" came Florence's now more irritating voice, and Georgie's head dropped back down to ground level. "Yes well..." began the nurse, but her speech was cut off in mid-stream by George's sudden ascension out of his chair and about-turn. He ran back to look around the corner and down the path they had just came from.

His stare was fixed quite firmly upon something, but Florence could not fathom what it was. She rubbed her spectacles and, putting them on, squinted into the distance. "Lost something?" She asked.

George's trance was broken and he turned back to the nurse, breaking through the sour expression his face held to reveal a wide grin. "No, nothing at all" uttered George unreservedly. He then returned to his chair and sank back into it. "Home James", he said. That was the only time George spoke to nurse Florence.

For the rest of the afternoon, George contented himself with finishing his knitting with brown wool. By 9pm he had stopped and had ended up with a brown square kind of a shape, like the handkerchiefs that George's father would wear on his head when watching his son play cricket during the blistering English summers back in Trowbridge.

Sister shook her head in dismay, as she drew the security-blanket-net-curtains around George's bed. "You don't need to use the ward toilet again George, do you? You used it an hour ago, so I shouldn't think so". George clicked his pocket watch shut. "I'll take that as a no then," said the Sister. "Honestly George, Fr Beakes was only joking about timing me. I'm never late you know".

George knew.

Sister left the ward, turning out the lights and leaving the quiet darkness to be broken only by the clicks and scrapes of knitting needles from behind closed net-curtains.

The following morning was precisely as was expected, and hoped for: not too wet, not to dry, but perfect. Nurse Florence entered Ward 3 early, along with Sister and Dr Peterson. "I didn't report it yesterday because I thought I'd give him time to speak and walk on his own again. But last night", continued Florence as she drew back the net-curtained walls of George's bed. "Last night I started to ask myself why he chose to talk and walk at that particular time".

"Well, things do seem to be coming to a head, perhaps we should ask him that question", quipped Dr Peterson, gesturing with another patient's chart to the back of George's head. He was lying, it would seem, contently asleep, oblivious to the three figures behind him.

"Go ahead" invited nurse Florence.

Sister stepped forward and gently rubbed George's shoulder. Just as she began to whisper loudly to him to wake up, his head seemed to jerk slightly and then... it fell off, rolling across the floor to the feet of nurse Florence, who smiled content with having her suspicions confirmed.

"What the hell is that?!" Gasped the grey-blue doctor.

"It's a knitted ball with brown wool attached to it", replied Sister automatically, almost in paraplegic shock. The doctor, now back to his normal grey tinge, pulled back the bed sheets revealing a slightly tarnished looking pocket watch and a square tin, which he opened to reveal some crumbs, a fountain pen and two knitting needles with a note attached which simply read:

"My gifts to you Florence - a little piece of home,

James.

PS - Thank Sister for the loan of her pen."




Nurse Florence smiled. Dr Peterson laughed. "So his real name was James" he said. Sister looked down blankly at her empty breast pocket where her pen should have been. She looked back up just as blankly and walked into the ward toilet. She looked out of the window, which George had opened early the previous evening.

Later, the three hospital staff, along with Fr Beakes, walked in the hospital gardens. Dr Peterson and Sister were rambling on about how such a thing was unheard of and about who should take the blame. Florence and Fr Beakes stopped at the slow growing conifers and looked up at the open toilet window of Ward 3 which George had clambered out of during the night at about 2:20am wearing his new dress uniform - just in-between Sister's highly punctual patrols.

Fr Beakes smirked as he felt in his pocket for the old and tarnished pocket watch, which George had used to exact his escape. He had jumped the 3 meters and 2 feet or so space of bricks down to the ivy covered lattice work, using the extra pair of gloves he had knitted to get through the thorns and branches, before jumping to the ground in his polished boots were covered by yellowy-pink booties which, as George had planned, muffled the sound of his footsteps as he ran down the pathway to freedom.

The Priest and nurse left the doctor and Sister complaining about the crushed conifers and trampled petunias, and walked around the corner. Nurse Florence stared into the distance. Her gaze was now fixed upon what George had seen the previous day, but which she hadn't been able to see - she didn't need her spectacles now.

The hospital gates stood unguarded. Well who would want to escape from a hospital in the middle of the jungle anyway?

"I suppose we'll be taking some of the blame for this" said the priest now looking down at the old watch, which he had removed from his waistcoat pocket. "I mean we both aided his escape in a roundabout way."

Florence kept smiling and staring passed the gates into the jungle. Fr Beakes saw how unconcerned the nurse was at the thought of disciplinary action being taken against her and so stared into the jungle as well.

"We were all too concerned with the madness inherent in his everyday existence." he pondered. "We never took the time to look for the sanity of his actions."

"This place was too much like Lau Mai to him, Father" said the nurse finally. "I doubt whether George could stay in any one place for any long period of time after what he experienced at Lau Mai."

Deep within the Burmese jungle, George or James or whatever he wanted to be called sat contently smiling, watching the breeze sway the trees gently backwards and forwards. He was free again, he knew he wanted to get home, but he wasn't sure how to get there or how long it would take him. What he was certain of was where he was not and where he did not want to be, and as he sat munching them amongst the grass, he was also certain that he definitely did like custard creams.

Fr Beakes snapped shut the old tarnished watch as Dr Peterson called to him and nurse Florence to come back to his office to discuss what action now had to be taken.

"It's ironic, you know" he said to Florence as they walked passed the crushed slow-growing conifers

"But I came today to tell George that I'd heard the Japanese fleet have been crushed at Midway in the Pacific and they're considering a peace agreement with the Americans. It would mean that our war may soon be over".

"Perhaps he already knew that" replied the nurse as they entered the hospital building and closed the doors behind them.



(word count: 3,838)


©CGAllan, 1998 - Please note: The right of CGAllan to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted by him in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.


I'm proud of this story for all sorts of reason - it was the first "serious" story I wrote that made me think, "I want to do this for a living in the future"... It was written in '98, when I was in the final year of a degree in English Language, and at a time when I should have been revising more and getting my final essays finished. But George/James came along to distract me from all of that study (maybe I needed the break from it all anyway) and led me into the jungle of Burma in the 40s...

My great-uncle and great-grandfather were both captured by the Japanese during World War II and having heard stories about them at family gatherings, I think this was a story I was just meant to write at some point.



Originally, I didn't intend to have any explanations or pictures on this blog for the stories I posted here, but having met and chatted with Vanessa Stafford about this story in particular, which I'm glad to say she enjoyed very much, and on finding out she painted such fantastic, imaginative watercolors, I decided to commission her to paint four small cards, inspired by "King Of The Jungle" to go alongside the story here. The images complement the words on the screen perfectly for me - the mix of colours and the bars of George's prison mind, as well as the splashes and hints of the poppy flower in Vanessa's paintings are so evocative and help to bring the things I tried to "paint" with my writing alive.


NB - this story was also e-published in 2003 on another fiction website celebrating the art of the short story - as of late 2006, "King of the Jungle" still appeared on the "In Search of the MacGuffin" site at: ttp://www.jigsawlounge.co.uk/macguffin/kingofthejungle.html





Wednesday

"The Evolutions Of Man" - a short story by CGAllan

Eyes opened as a new day began. The man sat up just as the sun rose and he realised that he had forgotten who he was and where mankind had come to. Looking round his room he couldn't recognise any of the things there: his CD player, PC and TV were all alien to him. Anxiety should have been what he felt, but instead he was curious. Curious as to what this world was like...

The sun was now above the horizon and it watched the man as he walked, a man who in his present state would have been more suited living at the beginning of time. The last of the morning dew rubbed against his bare feet as he progressed through a field. Crouching down, he was surprised at how he was drawn to such a simple thing - it seemed amazing. And yet it was so primitive when set against the world he had forgotten.

Continuing on his journey, he observed all sorts of animals, rushing here and there, busying themselves with their day-to-day needs. And then he came to a noisy place. A place where the human animal existed. Cars rushed up and down the motorway, while workmen drilled and hammered at some rock in the road. He decided to avoid this place and return to the previous things which had intrigued him.

Clouds gathered around the sun, which was high in the sky now, as if to form a great conference which followed the man's progress. He watched rabbits and birds, deer and otters, all of whom were chasing their mates in the Spring morning and he recalled how he had loved and how man was capable of such emotions - it seemed he had not forgotten the basic instincts of mankind.

He came to the foot of a grand hill and he began to climb with such ease that he wondered why he couldn't remember having done such a thing before. Reaching the crest of the hill, he could see all of man's inheritance: rivers, streams, fields and mountains. And he could also see things which puzzled him: huge buildings, all clumped together and straight roads along which cars screamed and raced, their drivers not even stopping to cast a glance upon their inheritance.

Another roaring noise sounded over head, un-natural and threatening, an aeroplane wailed above and the man had to cover his ears with his hands until within seconds it was gone. He decided to take a detour around the city he had just seen and continued on his journey.

The midday sun shone brightly through the clouds, warming the man's face, and he felt proud to be able to live in such a beautiful world. This prodigal son walked through a forest, where he watched ants in their droves building their nests and observed other insects who only a day earlier he would have thought insignificant.

A spider's web shone bright in the midday air, highlighted by droplets of rain left behind by the previous night's down- pour. As he watched the spider's intricate movements up the trunk of the tree and onto its web, which was cleverly suspended between two of the branches, he recalled a children's rhyme he once knew about a spider. His memory was returning. But he soon became distracted again at the marvellous life of this tiny, once insignificant creature.

In a nearby field, scientists and engineers tested a new robot which was designed like an insect to walk on the surfaces of uninhabitable planets. The man saw this and felt himself becoming engrossed with it for a moment - but only for a moment, for the new world he had discovered this day beckoned him, and he left the scientists and their toys.

By the time the afternoon came, the sun had become obscured by dark, menacing clouds - but to the man they were not menacing, he marvelled at their creation and could not recall noticing them ever before. He had walked a long way now, over hills and mountains, through valleys and towns, and he had seen many things which reminded him of his life before this day: cars and buildings, trains and technology - all of which he wanted to put out of his mind, because he knew there was more to discover about this new world which he had to find out, without those other things to obscure his view.

It began to rain, as it had done many times before. But this time the rain seemed different to the man. He remembered how he had always ran for shelter when it had rained, but now he remained under the rain as it fell, allowing it to fall upon him as he continued along his way.

He approached a village community and noticed how different it was from the huge city he had seen earlier that day. It was a welcome difference. He strolled across a bridge which crossed a beck and daydreamed as he went. He couldn't remember having done that for a long time.

The rain had stopped now. Another man, older and poorer, sat on the grass at the side of the road. He found the approaching stranger amusing, for he was still dressed in his pyjamas. The old man, eager for conversation, stopped the stranger and the two began to talk. The younger man told the other of his journey and all the things he had seen and discovered this day.

The old man listened attentively, finally saying, "I remember when where that city now stands there was farmland as far as the eye could see."

The old man's cliché was not a cliché to the younger man, but a sad truth - the man now remembered how all over the world countryside, rainforests and small villages such as this had been subordinated to the needs of 'concrete and progress'. He wondered how he had ever been attracted to huge cities, with their polluted air and competitive atmosphere.

The two men talked for a long time, discussing their world, but more importantly, they saw how they both appreciated their inheritance: the earth. "It seems as you grow older you remember less and forget more," said the older man. The other appreciated the irony, and was glad to have encountered someone of his own race who was not a slave to these modern times. He couldn't remember having ever met anyone like that before.

By the time the two parted company, the sun had grown weary of following the man and began to sink back into the horizon. The man, knowing he had to return to where he existed before this day, began his journey back.

As he passed the places he had seen earlier they seemed different. Quieter. More peaceful. It was a welcome difference. The places where man existed however, were even louder than they had ever been or than the man could ever remember. The city was brightly, but artificially lit, and was mankind's centre-piece to this part of the world - a 'haven' in the night's darkness.

The motorway too seemed more threatening at night - yet the man now remembered having raced up and down this place in his comfortable sports car himself, and it had not seemed frightening then.

His thoughts on these inventions of mankind were overshadowed however, by the beauty of the night sky. The stars he watched had watched man's history unfold and his legacy come to life over the centuries. He wondered how many other races' histories those same stars had witnessed... and how they compared to mankind's history... and why those races hadn't come to man's aid... and if they ever would.

As he approached his dwelling place, he realised that his memory had returned intact, save the fact of who he was and what his part was in this world. Whatever it was, he knew he was reconciled to a new existence. A new mission in life. A responsibility to preserve what was left of the natural world endowed to mankind.

This new day's journey had brought the man many things - direction, awareness - but also fatigue. He lay down to go to sleep once more, and he was thankful for this one day and lay in anticipation for what the next might bring.

And then he wept. For he realised who he was and what role he had played in man's 'modern' society before this day. He was one of those men who subordinated the natural world to man's materialistic pursuits. A capitalist, out for all he could drain from a dying world. But this new day had given him a resolve to change all that he had done before - this at least was consolation for his dealings with that world before this day.

Eyes closed as the new day came to an end. The moon, taking the sun's place high in the sky, guarded this prodigal son who was sorry for what he had done. He dreamed of what the next day would bring.

(word count: 1512)

©CGAllan, 1998 - Please note: The right of CGAllan to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted by him in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.

The idea for this story literally came as I woke up one morning - so that's why it begins with "Eyes open as a new day begins..." It was written around the time I first left university, and had not long turned 21. It maybe sounds daft to be melancholy at such a young age but those two events, plus being faced with the prospect of taking my first steps into the world of work (despite everyone sounding like broken records, saying, "Well,... now the world's your oyster!"), definitely made this a "crossroads" time in my life - it's not an exaggeration to say that I really did feel like I was standing on the top of a huge cliff face with a shaky rope bridge in front of me.

But, I'm happy to say, I got through that stage in my life, and I got much more confident and am now a slave to my job, as we all do become, I suppose, but I'm also very philosophical about it all these days, and I think that's the essence of this story - the personal eternal search for one's own philosophy. It's also a story of "getting back to basics" and peeling away the need for "toys" in life - gadgets, DVDs, the I-must-haves every time pay day comes around - it's an age old question that perhaps makes me sound like a broken old record, but writing this story was my way of asking myself, "Do you really need so much material wealth?"

Once again, I'm thrilled to be able to present some of Vanessa Stafford's artwork with this story - the waves of blue used here really fit with my idea of the at first bleak landscape the man is faced with whilst trying to work out what his world is all about. The watercolours also reflect the dawn and dusk times of the day that are described in the story very well for me.

There is a sequel to this story sitting in a small corner of my mind, quietly waiting to find it's way through my fingertips onto my keyboard - the man (still unnamed) will meet another human being, who's on a similar truth-finding journey, and try to convince him/her of his new philosophy - not sure how it'll end yet, though... Stay tuned here, you never know, it might work it's way onto here at some point in the future too...